I just finished getting the kids lunches and clothes ready, did the after kids go to bed tidying up and checked my workout and eating schedule for tomorrow. I am about to sit down and sip a cup of tea with maramiya and when my mother in law called. She wanted me to go with her to her sisters house tomorrow morning. Her sister is having a get together with her friends. I almost said ok no problem, but it just so happens my mobile was in front of the mirror, and naturally when I was talking I snuck a peak at myself, and realized how fat I am getting! I had to choose between going to the gym and sitting with a bunch 60-70 yo ladies I have never met!
The thing is this week I can only go to the gym on sunday, monday, and thrusday as I have previous engagments on tuesday and wednesday that I can not get out of, and of course on the weekend I can not go to the gym because of the kids! I am starting to really get depressed about my weight and need to feel better, so I can not afford to workout less than three times this week.
So now I feel bad, but really I do not feel like going to hubby's aunt's house tomorrow morning and would rather workout! I hate this! My mother in law does not understand this, she does not think that one day at the gym will make a differnce, but it seems there is always something getting in the way of me going to the gym. The first week it rained , and the second week my son was sick, and now the third week this! grrrrrrrrrrr! I only have five hour to myself everyday, and one hour is spent tidying up the apartment, and 1 hr getting unlazy and ready to go out so really I have three hours to do things. I always try to be home 30min before the kids come from school so I can be sure to be home to meet them, and get their lunch ready, so really its only 2.5hrs, and I would rather spend it working out, OK? ah I still feel bad! damn!